Residues

She was a genuine person. A humble, humours and lovely soul. She was not only my sister in law but also my best friend and a care taker. She never spends/takes anything for her. She wore simple clothes and led a simple life. She never said what she liked but sacrificed her life for her family. I still couldn't believe what has happened. I saw her after months, on an ICU bed with beep sounds, lying down without life. I have never seen/ dreamt of seeing her like that. She was the only healthy person in our family. This wasn't expected at all. I couldn't believe that she is lying down without her life. I held her hand tried to woke her up. Her hands were cold and her finger nails turned blue. Her left hand and legs were swelled up big. They said they revived her once. She was having the beleif that she would come back. But why? Nothing ever prayed went in vain. Why this? Where was the mistake? Why at this age? Why now? Why her? Why like this? Why God why? It's like you wer...

December something was telling me inside that a great miracle is about to happen to me, the only miracle I am waiting for now is my baby. After 5 years of marriage life, together and not together moments, I am waiting for a life to call me mommy. I started feeling weak as if I am totally exhausted physically and mentally. I was not able to eat properly. 'Should I check for the miracle, nope I was having infections, I am this weak how that will happen', I said to myself. I did everything as usual, the fast and body straining works. Mom said my face was glittering. 'Yeah it was sunlight', I said to myself. Others said my face looks very tired. Yeah I already felt exhausted. When I was about to travel somewhere after a pretty good time, I checked and saw the miracle happened already. Really. There were two lines on my strip. I am pregnant!! Seriously. I couldn't believe my eyes. But to my wonder it didn't bring me happiness either. 'What kind of emotion is t...

Mornings will always be on the fly routine for all women esp for working women. After all that running out and waiting for the elevator is one of the most annoying moment. And on that moment if you find your elevator is kept on hold by someone because they can't get inside and if they leave they have to wait a little more, its even more irritating. I always find my 5th floor guy who obviously will have less work than a woman, will keep the elevator  on hold until he does something inside his house. I am right one floor down. I always feel that if you are not ready for the elevator, then the elevator is not yours. I have been irritated like this 2 times before. 3rd time the little devil in me got on, I ran down the floor because I was also late and pressed all floors button because I wanted to teach him something, then I took my vehicle and left for office. I wanted to wait till he reaches down and look at him but I was already late. That was the last time my elevato...