Residues

Yesterday was wednesday, indeed a bad day that I wasn't knowing till it happened. Morning with full stomach and lunch packed I was riding my two wheeler to office. I didn't have much work at office, and at evening I was riding back to home, while I was nearing my home on the service road somewhere a dog came before my vehicle. I was not fast so I pressed my brakes slowly and the dog backed off, I thought its trying to cross the road and afraid that my vehicle came. But that's not the story. I didn't noticed what was that dog doing before on the road but when it saw me, it's face was ferocious, it came with a bark and bite my leg. As I wasn't expecting that dog's behaviour, I got panicked and drove away since I felt that if I stay or stop it would have eaten me. At a distance I noticed my leg is bleeding heavily. Till now I couldn't believe the scene. Its a rare thing happened to me to be in an unsafe circumstance. I had my shot of vaccination but still ...

I hardly remember the last time I spoke my heart out. Life is busy and its routine killed my life. Not even a single moment to stop by my husband, whom I see everyday, to say how much he means to me. When I was working hard with everything on my head fully occupied, this madam who is of my mom's age said, 'when you smile, your innocence is spreading across your face'. I replied, 'don't trust me'. She said back, 'you don't have to say i can see it from your eyes who you are, your eyes says it all'. That felt like a pat on my soul, I looked back at her without anything in my mind.

Well my heading is very true. When I was jobless I thought that was a hell and wasted life but actually now I am wasting it simple letting it pass by days months and years without even touching lives of people nearby. I am literally passing my time that I don't even get a proper food at the proper time with the proper relaxed mindset.

நல்ல மாலை பொழுது. வழக்கம் போல நான் நொந்து நூடில்ஸ் ஆகி போய் இருந்தேன். அலைச்சல் உலசச்சல் குடைச்சல் எல்லாம் என்னை கடுப்பேத்தி அமைதியா ஓரமா ஒரு இடம் கிடைச்சா போதும்னு இருந்தேன். கொஞ்சம் நேரம் கழிச்சி சில பல இடம் காலி ஆக ஒரு சீட்டோட ஓரத்துல நான் உட்கார அந்த சீட்டோட ஜன்னல் ஓரமா ஒரு 45 வயசு மதிக்க தக்க ஒரு அம்மா உக்காந்திருந்தாங்க. எல்லாம் இறங்க அவங்க மடியில தூங்கீகிட்டு இருந்த பையன மெதுவா இழுத்து கால் நீட்டி படுக்க வச்சிட்டு அவங்க தள்ளி தள்ளி உக்கார வந்தாங்க. சரி சண்டை வர போகுது வெலகு வெலகுனு அடுத்த சீட்ல போய் உக்காந்துட்டேன். சமீப காலமா யாராச்சும் அநியாயமா எதாச்சும் செஞ்சா செம கோவம் வந்து எதாச்சும் சொல்லீடறேன். அப்டிலாம் இல்லாம பொறுத்து அமைதியா இருக்கணும்னு எனக்கு நானே சொல்லிகிட்டத சரியா பாலொவ் பண்ணலாம்னு இருந்தேன். இன்னொரு அம்மா சின்ன குழந்தையோட அவங்க பக்கத்துல இடம் போட்டாங்க. அவங்க உள்ள வரதுக்குள்ள மற்ற இரண்டு பேரு வந்து உக்காந்துட்டாங்க. அந்த சின்ன குழந்தை வசிர்க்க அம்மா இவங்கள்ட சண்டை போட, அந்த ரெண்டு அம்மாவும் அந்த ஜன்னல் ஓர அம்மா கிட்ட சண்டை போட. மாத்தி மாத்தி சண்டை. ரெசெர...

Well, after all these years, life has come to explain itself. Life has its ups and downs and some downs can go for a looooong time. Life's happenings makes you question what was wrong and in that confused state we stagnate in life. We tend to lose everything we have and our hands become fruitless. Whatever we do may not yield good tidings and happiness. Is our path wrong? May be or may not be. But what I have learnt in life is, when you lose everything in life you know the value of everything and there comes a beautiful deed and random act of kindness spreading over. Everyone will like you want you except you. And some may use you but you still don't care. Think good, be good, do good. Conditioning of the mind make things change. When everything happens wrong in your life, keep the hope, that God is already there where you are heading. Its not necessary to be acknowledged, to be appreciated, even if your works and deeds yield no benefit do it simply. Our choices and path ar...