3rd April 2012

After a long series of hard days, collapsed mind and messed life, this day was one smile from God. I woke up early in the morning though I didn't have a good night's sleep, I still felt tired in body and soul, I turned on spiritual songs after a long time to get a peace of mind, after fb and its games, I lay back in bed with some thoughts in mind. Soon after I got up and came to hall & sitting & scratching my eyebrow thinking of something. I ate my morning breakfast after one week. I lay back in bed with some thoughts and slept. 

At 1pm my mom woke me up, when I opened my eyes I saw my dad lying next to me and mom sitting next to me saying that's why you should choose morning session for your class. I woke up took bath and started to class. I have no hope nor any way I just started with my new black helmet which weighs more than my head, I rode bike with many thoughts at mind so confused and completely messed up in life. After crossing certain streets I found myself not only lost in thoughts but also in way, I saw to my left where I was riding and found exactly the street I have to turn, I pressed my break and turned and rode to see my class. 

Parked my vehicle out and walked in to see the owner and his wife standing out, I walked in looking at them, looking me they walked back to their table. I walked in and said 'I want to join the class, yesterday myself and my dad came to inquire about it'. She said, 'Oh is that'. After their few words of hope I registered my name there. She asked me to come in and asked her husband to give me the books. He said 'wait please I'll finish this to other students and come'. I said 'sure' and came back to my seat at reception. Both came then and He said 'you are not Preeti, but my cousin daughter exactly looks like you, very exactly, I came to ask are you Preeti, but you are not'. I smiled back. Then he had my books at his hands and leaned to me, I stood up and received, as I kept my hands in it, he said, 'We shall pray ma'. I didn't expect such a wonder there. I was a mess, I was broken, lost in hope entirely unlived, but his prayer was with words of comfort and hope, 'I give this daughter in your hands, take care of her life and her future'. I'm not sure about the promise of what he asked but I loved and deeply touched by a stranger's care on me. Till then I was completely messed up but this happening remembered me that God is with me even if I'm messed up so badly.