Riding a Bike Being a Girl...

Its very natural as breathing for me to connect me as a human before I put on something else like Girl, Indian etc. So it’s pretty normal for me to go out, ride a bike and do things on my own without triggering anything outside.

This was the case happened last week, a dark evening, about 7.15pm, I was riding home from my class. It was a tedious route and so the traffic but that day it was less crowded. I was heading towards my home, about 5 kilometres afar of my home, a bike of two guys where going in dead speed ahead of me. I’m usually pretty normal in my speeding but I’m less patient in following a dead speeding vehicle in safe and less crowded road. Those guys where going in the centre not considering about the vehicles behind.

I went slowly behind them and listened whether they’d leave some space for the vehicles behind or will they move fast. But no sign of the two happened so I seek to show them there are vehicles behind and so I moved up to them on their left (where even no space for overtaking is left and no place in the right too) without the intention of overtaking them through left but in the intention of showing them to leave space or move fast. The guy who drove the bike saw me. I thought he has noticed me so he will leave some space or move fast. But now he has put on his hero mask and was moving in a zig zag manner without letting me to overtake it and turning and seeing in intervals and showing his driving flair.

Ooo I hate this behaviour. I was eagerly going to my home to see my mom and say how the class went for the day, idhula idhu veraiya. Being kind is more necesaary than being timid/stern. So anything usually doesn’t ruffle me. When he was siding towards the left, I triggered my accelerator and overtook him in the right, knowing what he’ll do next. Yes he overtook me with utmost speed. And the road was clear; I was happy and went on my way to home.

I don’t understand where his egoism was when he was circusing before me. I don’t have any ego regarding the gender overtaking me. Who have urgency or speeding greater than me, overtake me. It’s very simple. On my turning he was standing with his vehicle and talking to his friends seems he resides somewhere inside. I came home as I planned to.

It’s silly when some guys feel an urge to prove that they are more powerful, why don’t they think they are far more than these things? In my point strong people don’t feel an urge to prove themselves. I value both guys and girls are equal. They are far more divine from spotting them with the stupid question of can you do this or can you do that. Both have their own strengths and their own weaknesses. Living as a man is a success for a man and living as a woman is a success for a woman. Driving a scooty is definitely not a man thing and overtaking any vehicle if they are dead slow is not a particular gender thing too. I believe it’s a human thing ;-)

I wondered what had grown in these years of independence or the transformation from stone age to new age. Actually in my point of view, the strength of an individual person is in how kind they are.

நீ

நேற்று என் வானம் மழை தரவில்லை

ஏனோ என் தோப்பில் குயில் வரவில்லை

வானவில் இருந்தும் வண்ணங்கள் இல்லை

பூக்கள் இருந்தும் புன்னகை இல்லை

அரண்மனை வாசல் தாண்டி நான் அன்புக்கு ஏங்கினேன்

உன்னிடம் சேர்ந்த பின்பு தான் சொர்கத்தை வாங்கினேன்

எனக்கிந்த சொந்தம் போதுமே

எனக்கொரு துணையாய் உனைத்தான் நினைத்தேன்

நினைத்ததை முடித்து உன்னிடம் ஜெயிப்பேன்

நிழலினைப் போலே உன்னுடன் நடப்பேன்

உயிருக்குள் உன்னை சுகமாய் சுமப்பேன்

இதுவரை வாழ்ந்த வாழ்விலே

கனவுகள் இல்லையே

இனி எந்தன் பாதை யாவிலும் நீ தான் எல்லையே

நீ இன்றி சொந்தம் இல்லையே

நீ இருந்தால்

காதல் தாய்மை இரண்டு மட்டும்

பாரம் என்பதை அறியாது

உன் பளிங்கு முகத்தைப் பார்த்துக்கொண்டால்

பசியோ வலியோ தெரியாது

The Best Vision To Take A Step Forward

Its been long I decorate my pages with my own scribbling. One fine evening, I was on my way to shopping with my dad for few purchases for my cousin’s wedding. I hate one thing about me completely is, I’m totally careless when I’m with my loved ones. After all the other purchases, while coming out dad reminded me to buy small stuffs and suggested a platform man who was selling those near by. I went nearby and asked him one set safety pins. He picked up one set and gave me and then picked up another set and told me, “Please buy one more set, it would be cheaper for Rs.5”. I will always be running out of pins, whenever I need them I go searching here and there scholding them so and that too I don’t have heart to ignore anything for these people. So I received it from him and told my dad I would buy two sets. My dad told me to notice that he has no vision. Sightless, one of the most horrible things to face, carry and live with.

Careless me, haven’t noticed it throughout the conversation. I was disappointed with my carelessness and shocked at his lifestyle. In no place it was visible that he is sightless. He is such a capable person. And I always have shocked at their ability to take life with their own confidence, courage and strength. If you have experienced it you would definitely know how strong they are. He can beg, but he didn’t and don’t want to. Even if we force them with money they would not receive it and will ask us only to buy things if we want to give them money. What a great self respect they have! Though the total world is dark for them, they always have the best vision to take their step forward.

I told him, “Here is the rupees” and he leaned his hands and I located his hands and gave him his amount. He would not know even if someone cheats him. It was not even a small shop it was just the platform. Rain and sun will tear them apart. We people within going for a small ride in the sun feels very much for the skin and paint our faces with sunscreens, cover our faces like terrorists and curse the sun from here. But with a beautiful spirit he came forward to face the horrible life. He might lose everything he has in his dark world of hot sun and rain but definitely not His Self Respect, His Strength and His Beautiful Spirit. We have a lot to learn from them. I don’t believe in spotting a top celebrity for my role model. Better I would be wholeheartedly willing to spot these people as my navigator.